Growing up in Ontario as the son of Finnish immigrants, John clearly remembers being the shyest of children. His shyness often converted to fear, and he inexplicably chose to hide in his parents car whenever the family would pay visits or go out to eat. The fears and anxieties grew worse as John grew up but with his first drink before his teenage year those fears drifted away. It took only a year or so more for John to get fully drunk for the first time, an experience he believed was magical. But the magic faded the more John drank.